I have something to share with you guys. It’s important. I have finally made my decision to set a doctors appointment.
For many many YEARS!!!! I’ve been considering a breast reduction. I’m sure people will be like “whyyyyy” but for most girls with the big BOOBIES they know why. Unless you’re in our skin, you may not understand. At this point in my life where I really know who I am and am comfortable with who I am. I have put a lot of thought into this. My back hurts like HELL, my bra straps are scarring my shoulders leaving these ugly red marks on them, my posture sometimes is out of whack, when I lay down my chest feels very heavy and not to mention I cannot exercise without 20 million bras on. smh Simple cardio is a project for me. I have to strap on 2 bras and 2 tank tops over the girls just to tie them down to work out comfortably. Anyways. I have thought of this for along time but didn’t have the guts to see a doctor. I heard it hurts like hell. The scars don’t bother me. But the pain does. I heard it burns like FIRE. But I dunno. It might jet be me over thinking. Some people around me had many selfish opinions about this. Some of them being I would lose my sex appeal or why mess with what God gave me. Sex appeal?? HONEYS! I don’t care about that at all. I’m not here to sell sex, i’m here to be healthy. My fans love me for ME. For who I am, for being able to share my personal life, the ups the downs, the times i’m scared, when i’m happy etc And if people lose interest in me because of my boobs. Then I don’t need or want them in my life. Fair weather fans are not anything i’m interested in.
Anyways. I spoke to my loved ones about it and my current representatives about this. They want whatever makes me happy and that makes me feel even better about going to the doctor. Funny because many of my old representatives were so against it because their were too concerned about selling SEX for the short term dollar. They literally let me know that in this business SEX sells and nothing else. WTF? Really? Looking back at this omg these people we’re soooooooooo manipulative and misguiding me. I am glad I don’t work with them anymore. This business is so cold and it’s funny how many women think that they need enhancements to get noticed in the entertainment business. You should NEVER alter your body to be in this business. Don’t let these sharks pray on you because THEY WILL. And they will misguide you! You don’t need to fall into the pressure of society. It is deadly and can lead to a vicious cycle of low self esteem because of trying to “fit in” with all the glam you see in the media. Don’t do it! Don’t fall into the hype. You are beautiful at any size and shape. And anyone that says other wise or wants to not be a part of your life because of it. Tell them to kick rocks. YOU are beautiful!
Anyhoos. I have a doctors appointment in California this week to discuss. We will see what happens. I am excited, scared, and anxious. As just an appointment about this is a serious step in my life. I personally am not worried about anyone mad at why I reduced them if I do. This isn’t for anyone but me and my health. I guess if I do this it’s like a make under?? lol So yeah i’m pretty nervous about the whole process but excited to know what my options are. There are a bunch of cool scarless laser techniques i’m interested in learning more about. Ideally I would like to be a D cup, I am now a 40 E I wonder how it’s going to feel to be FREE from this weight on my upper body. Aggggggg I can’t wait.
Has anyone else done this? How was the experience? Did it hurt? Do you regret it? Do you feel better now that you’re lighter?
Talk to me loves I want to know. I need your moral support here!! If I do decide to do this I will document my entire experience. Bandages, pain, crying, happiness and all. lol
This is what I have to deal with Hopefully no more And yes, it hurts just like it looks!
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