My thoughts/feelings today are sad and tearful.
April 28, 2010 in Candid Thoughts
**I MUST WORK HARDER**
Atleast once a day I get teary eyed because I do what I do for my parents sake. I’m young with no responsibilities, no kids, just me. 
So I can always do a lot with my life. But, my parents are old, immigrants, and they don’t have an education. I never get tired of sharing my story because so many of you out there can relate. It’s like we are all connected because of our similar stories. You know. No one has helped me come up. Trust me. NO ONE has wanted to help me. Literally everyone I have ever worked with has slept on me. I gain and gained all that I am ALONE. I have been homeless, I have lost everything due to me pursuing my DREAM. How can a beautiful girl in Hollywood not have all she wants?? Well. EASY! I’m not down with the sugar daddy thing and i’m NOT down with sleeping around to gain career advancement. Seriously. My parents would disown me. I wasn’t raised that way. I was raised the opposite. To work hard, to use your work ethic VS your beauty. Some say i’m stupid for not giving up the box for the lead in a movie role or a million dollar contract But the truth is. I would be a failure if I did that. Because in reality that means, I didn’t get the part due to my hard work and talent. I got it on other terms. SAD. To be honest. I been grinding for A LONG LONG time by myself and that is why everything has taken sooooooo damn long to manifest. No one wanted to help me. I had music producers sabotage my projects (everyday I want to blast them because they pretend to be SO HUMBLE but they did me so dirty it’s disgusting), managers steal money from me, mangers not do ANYTHING FOR ME, promoters not pay me, boyfriends do me super dirty, friends got jealous of me, casting directors have super cuss me out, I have been treated like GARBAGE just like when I was a maid! But……I swallowed my pride even when I wanted to say something crazy to em’, I kept it moving.
It isn’t easy trying to work in Hollywood when it’s 
just YOU without any connections and not being a SLUT! The girls that give up the box, get put in the front of the line. So the ones that are actually for real grinding like me. We get put in the back and we have to fight to get up to the front. I AM A FIGHTER!!!!! That is why now, i’m at the front of the line. But I still have a long way to go. Now I am blessed. After years of grinding. I have proven myself to the big boys and now FINALLY I am working with many credible people. But please know this. I do it for the LOVE not the fame. I wouldn’t be ok with being homeless and broke if the case were otherwise. I truly love what I do. The ones that do it for the fame, as you can see, will do ANYTHING scandalous for it, including degrading themselves for it. Me personally, I have no hidden intentions. Here is my motivation for all I do. It’s simple really.
Everyday I wake up and look at this picture. I don’t want to ever go back to the ghetto or be a maid like me and my moms were. We were degraded every day that we cleaned TOILETS with our bare hands. We were called “useless” immigrants that would never make it in this country. I learned English in school then taught my parents. Grew up on 1 bed, 1 little crib I slept on till I was like 4, in a freezing garage over dirt, YES A GARAGE not an apartment but a damn garage, and we never had enough food or heat. But my parents worked hard, humbly to provide what they could for us.
My parents need me! Without me, they will be homeless. I gotta work harder :/
No one ever gave me a handout. I don’t want one. Just tell me where I gotta be, and i’ll work my butt off. These fake chicks in Hollywood are sell outs. I GOT A VENGEANCE AGAINST HOLLYWOOD TO PROVE NOT ALL CHICKS ARE LIKE THAT! Not me….
I love to work. My work ethic is impeccable. No one can say differently. Let’s get this!!!!!!!!!!
xoxo
Somaya BOSS Reece
P.S
To all of you who have done me dirty. I would suggest you apologize NOW because see…..what really goes down in the industry and what you did to me was not cool. No need to worry though. I’ve been writing down all my horrifying experiences that have happened to me in the industry over the last 8 years. How many of you treated me and others like GARBAGE!!! In fact. I thought you people would change by now but you are still the same greedy, conniving, typical Hollywood types that pretend to be so humble. So, when i’m on a super MAJOR level one day. You will feel my wrath. You will be discredited like no other. The world will know that all you claim, to be real, for the people, down to help anyone. THAT IS ALL A FRONT! You are famous and rich beyond belief. And you would think you would be humble in real life. You do realize that can all be gone in an instant right? But I still see you be little others and treat them like garbage. SAD! If I don’t reach that level, all my writings will be enough material for a book. And this book will speak for all the people you have also done horrible things to and will put me on a level beyond YOU. I’m a business woman. And I know that. Now is not the time to say anything because my voice will be 1 MILLION times louder a few years down the road. And. Yes. OH YES MY DEARS. I haven’t forgotten, i’m a woman. We never forget anything. So guess what? YES! That’s right, your name will be in my book. YOU ARE MY BITCHES 
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Part 3 (coming in Feb 2012)
