Hey guys. Today is fathers day. And I know that some of you are not happy with your fathers because he was either not there growing up or because he caused so much hurt, that you have not or just simply cannot forgiven him. I wanted to share with you my story with my daddy 
My dad was far from a perfect dad. As a child I went through a very VIOLENT home due to him being a severe alcoholic. I can’t begin to tell you countless of times my father would come home and beat my mother, me and my sisters. How many times he cheated on my mother and I was the one who caught him. This broke my little heart as a kid. How many times he went to jail and how horribly affecting that has been to me , even now as an adult. It made me very aggressive and it made me not like men or trust them at all. I cried myself to sleep so many times praying he wouldn’t come home to hit us. The craziest thing is my dad would have days of sobriety and he would have heart to heart talks with me as a little girl. He would tell me to never let a man hit me, or treat me bad because I was a princess and I deserved a good man. He would also tell me to not be with a man like him but that he loved me so much. As a child this was so confusing. But no matter what. My dad would always make sure that I knew I was protected by him and that he loved me.
For years I lived with the pain of what my dad did to us. It made me want to date nothing but GOOD GUYS. But then I met my 1st boyfriend. this guy was my father all over again. He did the worse thing to me and I put up with it. He cheated on me and did other HORRIBLE things to me. Someday I will share the ugliest and saddest part of my life with that bastard. I am forever scared from it but I am far from dealing with that pain again. Well. I came home one day and I broke up with this guy and he wasn’t having none of that. Instead of walking away he was hiding behind bushes, when I walked home he jumped out and BEAT me into pulp. He broke a few of my teeth and I still can’t feel the right side of my face and my nose is still broken.
Do you see the cycle?? It was happening to me now. But I refused to be with this guy. What was happening in my home was now happening to me. I quickly realized that I had to get wise quick about this situation. I wont even mention what my dad to this dood. But. I will never forget the day that happened to me. My dad cried and told me he was sorry and that he promised to change one day. He didn’t want this happening to his little girl. What happened to me made him want to change. You know how I always say “Treat your women as you would want yout mother or daughter to be treated”…?? This is exactly what I mean when I say that. I say this from my experience.
After years of taking my dad to AA meetings, living in and out of the hospitals with him due to his alcoholism almost killing him. I am proud to say my father is a changed man. My father is alcohol and women free. He is no longer together with my mother but, he is a man of god now and he showed me the most important thing I could ever learn. The power of forgiveness I forgave my father for all the crazy he was. My mother refuses to forgive until this day. She has a lot of anger towards him. And that is something I work on with her all the time. I write this blog because I know how many of you are out there hurting due to situations like mine. We all share similar stories. We are all connected. I hope that even though you are not in a good place with your fathers, try to call them, fogive them. Forgiving is so powerful and easier said than done believe me. I just went through a very public emotionally and mentally abusive relationship. I don’t even have to mention who. You know who. But I took the POWER and moved on. Sometimes you don’t even realize you are in that situation. But when you do. Get out of it ASAP!!!! I Forgave the person even though I send them the side eye at times. The power in taking control and forgiving is very theraputic. It takes time and this doesn’t apply to everyone out there. But hey, I did it. And I am one stubborn girl. haha
I now believe that not all men are BAD and I now know that people…..CAN CHANGE! No one is perfect.
Happy fathers day
Here are some photos from the carshow. I made an appearance and helped Kay Slay with his bikini cover search contest for his magazine Straight Stuntin. And of course I got him to dance a little Latino dance with me on stage. haha He’s so amazing. 
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Part 3 (coming in Feb 2012)
