I decided to start writing a weekly diary entry about what is going on in my personal life. My life has been an open book. So I hope you enjoy taking this journey with me

It’s exactly 2 months since I left L.A with 1 suitcase, my laptop and a broken iPhone! I have now been here in the East coast for 2 months. WOW!! Time flies. I had absolutely no intentions of staying this long. My plan was to come work with Cito on my new style of music and go back home. Thank goodness through a few well deserved blessings. I am here to stay and am working on building my name. I wish I could tell you exactly what I am doing but I can’t. It would spoil so much, but it is coming soon. I will be a household name VERY VERY SOON! It’s kind of crazy how I came here and then all these AMAZING things started happening. To be honest. I was working really hard and having my tearful moments of wanting to give up. I cannot begin to tell you how HARD my life has been trying to “break” the right way and not sleeping around to make it. I wish yall knew ho hard I beat the pavement daily so I don’t have to do that. I must have cried myself to bed a zillion times PRAYING every night about this. Always knowing my intentions were good but it has been really hard for me. Thinking to myself ”all I need is one chance to shine” one BIG chance! Agggggg. And I found it here in New York City. CRAZY. I would look at my mothers eyes and know that I had to make it BIG……for her and my father. Anyways. Forget about that before I start getting teary eyed. 

I have a few really amazing friends out here and even some business associates have turned into great friends. It’s funny though because it’s just been me, my luggage, a few supportive friends and my music. I didn’t even come here with a lot of money. I left a hefty sum with my mom to hold herself down with my dad for a while incase I was “Gone Till November”…! Don’t ask how I have the courage to be so balls out. I just do. lol I guess when you have been beaten down in life so bad you just have to keep getting up and looking ahead. I can’t stop. I have no choice but to make it far. I WILL NOT LOSE!!!!!!! 

And even if it all went away. I will always be ok. Why? Because I never got in this business with hidden agendas.    

I get asked a lot “do you miss home” and I have to say  I only miss my parents because they are my little hearts. I have found a new home here in the East Coast and have been welcomed with open arms. I’m really excited to be here in a new place. It has been a hard adjustment though. Life out here is very different. I still haven’t found a place yet! lol I’m sorta in a temporary sublet until I find a new place. But I can’t let that stop me. I guess the hustle is who I am. And I think at times I am in love with the hustle & struggle. I thrive off of it. And even though I’m getting a lot of  what I want now, I am still staying humble and hungry. My eye is on the prize like no other.  

Ok. back to missing my parents. I call them everyday and they are so cute. They always ask if I am ok, I tell them yes. And before I hang up they always say “Say no to drugs, portate como una nina buena” (behave like a good girl) haha parents are so cute. My mom says she wants to come out here. So i’m bringing her out in a few weeks when I get my new place. Work has been so CRAZY that is has been impossible to fine a new place. And also. Because the living here is so different, place too small, to far from the city, neighborhood not good. etc It’s been tough to find a place but next week when I get back from the Bay. My sisters are flying in and we are looking for a spot. My mom and dad have already put in their requests on what kind of place I should get. lol THEY ARE HILARIOUS!! But, they deserves to have everything I can give them. For all the sacrifices they made for me and my sisters to live in this country.  Now it’s me who is sacrificing being away for so long. I work so much I don’t even have a personal life. lol I’m trying hard to make one though. Making time for myself and a special someone, family and friends. the balance. Agggggggggg I miss my parents.

Speaking to them always bring me back to realizing how their love for me is so UNCONDITIONAL. Where does that even exist anymore?

Anyways.

These are my unguarded thoughts at the moment

11:00pm EST it’s a warm quiet evening!

Somaya BOSS Reece

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